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When I was seven years old, my parents separated. My mother remarried and we moved to another city. In the spring/summer, I saw my biological father for the last time on a walk with my little brother. He told us it would be better for us children if he didn't come to visit again. (Visual separation conflict, conjunctiva of the eyes and weather conflict affecting the nasal mucosa). That was it. No sign of life, no letters, nothing.

A year later, right on my eighth birthday, my eyes started to burn terribly. Later, my nose started running too. ( Since then, it's been the same routine every year at around the same time). I can remember it so well because I had invited friends around and because of my eyes I was allowed to walk around proudly wearing my adoptive father's sunglasses all day.
From that time on, I had “hay fever” every year... sometimes so bad I was given cortisone injections so I could work (it has a sympathicotonic effect and reduces the vagotonic healing symptoms).
The thought of my father never left me. I wanted to know how he managed to leave his children and whether he missed us at all.
In my early 30s, I got in touch with him. He had remarried, and the conversations weren't very enlightening. Lots of justification, lots of repression, lots of blah blah blah...

After the birth of my son, his biological grandson, my father and his wife came to visit. They were hardly interested in the child, but talked almost exclusively about their feelings and experiences. I thought that was very strange.
After that meeting, I decided to avoid contact, as there were absolutely no commonalities anymore and I didn't feel any real closeness to him/between us.

From then on, I hardly felt any symptoms of my allergy!

Ten years later, I was told by someone else that my father had died.
I never had any symptoms again after that!
I only realised it later and only now does it all make sense!

Meeting my father brought up the old issue of separation again and I was able to come to terms with it as an adult.